Monday, January 28, 2008

Past Post 2

Wed Jun 20th, 2007 10:16 AM

Hi big girl. It's been three weeks and I still can't believe you're gone. I keep looking into the closet where we kept your pen, expecting to see you standing up looking for treats and pets. I miss watching your sudden binkies that would launch you a couple feet in the air (from a stand still). I miss how you were the gentlest of them all, you were the only one who would sit near Ringo without trying to nip at him. I miss lying on the floor while you were running loose and you hop over and stand on my back, like you were king.....queen of the mountain. I miss you baby. You taught us so much about rabbits, about patience. Loosing you was so unexpected, it came as a horrible shock to both of us. You may have been the runt of your litter, but you were the pick of it to us. I still can't believe you're gone.

I miss you big girl.

Sun Jul 1st, 2007 03:31 PM

Hey Sam,

Yesterday it was one month since you died. I tried not to think about it but I couldn' help it. I was so sad knowing that you aren't here. Daddy was pretty sad to. It so wierd how fast this has all gone by.

Not much I can say other than we miss you.

Mon Jul 9th, 2007 08:01 AM

Today of all days is hard. Today is supposed to be your day. Two years ago today you were carried into our lives and showed us we were beneath you. Not worthy to breath the same air. It took a long time but you and I came to understand each other.

We miss you so much. There is a hole in our family where you should be. Teresa is a princess but you were our queen. We want you home with us so bad it hurts.

Wed Jul 25th, 2007 12:57 PM

Hey girl. You have been on our minds so much. It's still hard to think of you as not here.

Posted: Fri Jul 27th, 2007 10:35 AM I don't know why but I miss you so much today. I can not stop crying. You were are world.

Thu Aug 16th, 2007 05:13 PM

I miss you so much Sam. Some new freinds went to the bridge and I need you to look for them. One is Michelles Black Jack. He is such a handsome boy. Maybe You guys would like to play together.

There is Pegs Pow Wow. Make sure she is all well.

Elissians Milly. He was just a baby and he needs friends.

Also Peepoo and Petey.

So many have passed on care for them ok my big girl.

Sun Aug 19th, 2007 08:39 PM

Ok been missing her alot lately. Bonding keeps me busy.

Posted: Sat Sep 15th, 2007 12:45 PM

Hey girl I have been thinging alot about you. We miss you so much. We are working hard and still doing all we can for bunnies.

Posted: Tue Oct 9th, 2007 05:31 PM

Miss You lyricsAaliyah(feat. Jay-Z)

[Intro: Jay-Z (Aaliyah)]What's up baby girl! (Ho!) Thought I had to talk to you again, missing you (Hey, ey, ey, ey) Tim is missing you Missy's missing you Rashad is missing you your mom is missing you (N-n-n-n-no no no) Your pop is missing you Dame is missing you darn we missing you...WOO!!!

[Verse 1: Jay-Z (Aaliyah)]All we listen to is all the different yous Four page letters in addition to Have you ever loved somebody used to get the party poppin We used to party alot, we used to be in the Hampton's partied alot We was The Breakfast Club you was a part of the ROC We used to make up special names for the food we ate Remember cerial pie one of your favorite plates (I miss you) Well Dame told me tell you he's doin well Due to the circumstances, it could've been Bellevue But I ain't got to tell you, you lookin over us Our little angel, but you know what

[Chorus: Jay-Z (Aaliyah)]Brooklyn's missing you Detroit is missing you New Orleans missing you Philly's missing you (It's been too long and I'm lost without you) Your uncle's missing you your families missing you Your fans is missing you the galleries missing you darn we missing you (It's been too long and I'm lost without you)

[Verse 2: Jay-Z (Aaliyah)]Now Star is mad I won't grant him a interview Now he's dissing me cause he dissed you Can you believe the nerve of this dude? Cause of your memory I won't bring in the pistols But he got issues enough of that lame I never seen pain like your parents pain But I know God protecting you You used to read Seed Of The soul I know God perfecting you All the estrogen the darker texture you are the more intellectual You are so professional our little purple star Too good for earth you are (I miss you)

[Chorus: Jay-Z (Aaliyah)]Houston's missng you L.A.'s missing you DC's missing you Chicago's missing you (It's been too long and I'm lost without you) Kidada's missing you Shock is missing you Colleen is missing you Tiny is missing you (It's been too long and I'm lost without you)

[Verse 3: Jay-Z]By the way, Big we missing you Pac we missing you We feel your presence just not in the physical All across the world, blocks is miserable Y'all left a void it's alot of little yous But they not original and they not identical They just studied your flows and they watched your interviews That's when hip hop if it's not ten of you Then it gotta be more, y'all left your paws Footprints on the game hood ain't been the same Feeling ain't been in music hooks ain't been the same But I'm doing what I can man and try to follow y'all memory lane man Big you be ashamed to see New York gangbang Pac you feel the same thing they use your name in vein But I guess that's the issue And it proves how much, niggas really miss you

[Outro: Jay-Z (Aaliyah)]Pun we missing you Big L we missing you Left Eye we missing you Jay we missing you Jam Master Jay, Freaky Tah, Scott La Rock, the list goes on........ The world is missing you the hood is missing you (Wondering if your the same and who's been with you) Nah mean, miss y'all (I miss you) This goes, to the memory of all our fallen soldiers Soldiers and soldgettes all across the world (I miss you) We gon' hold y'all down, y'all live in our memories forever We never gon' let y'all go

[Aaliyah (Jay-Z):]I, can't, breathe, no, more (We not remembering y'all death though!) Since you went away (We celebrating your life) I dont really feel like talkin, don't wanna hear you love me (Nah mean!) Baby (Yes!) do you understand me (Yes!) I can't do a thing without you (darn we missing you) Wondering if your the same and who's been with you, I miss you Wondering if your the same and who's been with you, I miss you

Posted: Sun Oct 21st, 2007 09:06 AM

Hey big girl,

I have been missing you so much lately for so many reasons I am sure you know why.

Daddy and I keep talking about someday getting another flemish giant (though more than likely you were mixed). We know she could never replace you. That is just not possible. You were one of a kind.

We miss your size, your weird but seldom binkies, your thunderous stomps, the way you could knock us down with your strength, and the weight when you sat on my back your front paws on my head.

We love you so much and that is never going to change. It is almost 5months since we lost you and it still feels like that day. I wonder if that will change.

Since you left us I am sure you know Wyatt has joined the family. Also that two more guinea pigs are joining us (Mason Alexander and Kingsley Merlin).

On a sad note Auntie Rosie lost her baby Drew. I need you to look for her and care for her till Auntie Rosie can be with her. I am sure you GingerSpice and Puck can do that. We miss all of you so much. Tell all of our RO buns that we miss them.

Also tell the PB buns that we miss them too. Tell Ashy his pea force still sings for him.

Love always,

Mommy, Daddy

Posted: Fri Nov 2nd, 2007 02:26 PM

Hey big girl,

157 days today since you left us. Yea I count. I miss you. It just won't stop. I love you even more than I knew.

It kills me that you are no longer here. Why!? We loved you so much. I thought we had so much more time. It's just not fair!! I want you here. I want you back.

I am in a bad spot right now. Things seem like they are almost right but than I am slapped down again.

Anyway I have some pictures to add.

Love Always Mama.

Posted: Sun Nov 18th, 2007 08:04 PM

Hey big girl,

I just wanted to let you know that Teresa is sick. At first I was scared that I would lose her too. Now I know I just have to care for her. She is still feisty so makes me feel alittle better.

If I do lose her I don't think I can survive it. I know most say they like bucks better but no buck can give you the look a doe can. I would like to think if I did you two would finally get along. What a girl can dream can't she?

There are six bunnies in Maryland that need some help from you bridge bunnies. Lend them a paw wether it be a new home on earth or one with all of you at the bridge.

Love Always Mama

Posted: Fri Nov 30th, 2007 01:44 PM

Hey Big Girl,
Today is a special day. Dallas came to be part of our family. You didn't mind him. For the most part you ignored him.
At the same time I miss you even more. Nobody knows but I actually thought about trying to bond Elvis or Connor to you. Instead I bonded Connor to Dallas and Teresa and never tried you with Elvis. I didn't give you the chance of having a friend. Maybe you would have lived longer with one. Than again maybe not.
I miss you so much! I wish you were here! I know I can not change that. Doesn't matter I still want you here. It is so weird with out you.
Love Mama

Posted: Fri Dec 21st, 2007 10:12 AM

Hey Big Girl,

The pain feels as if it will never end. Instead of melting away it builds up keeping me in a fortress where no other can enter. I want to help those around me who are going through the same but I can't. How can I when I myself am trapped in the same cyle of pain.

I still have some anger in me. It usually pops up at the oddest times. The biggest thing would have to be the pain of missing you.

I really did not know how close I was to you. I guess it built slowly not instant like the others. You became my best friend. I didn't really have one who was there. Oh I had some I talked on the phone sometimes but not someone right there. I told you all kinds of things. We argued alot but still loved being with each other.

The last week has been a very hard one. How is it that someone so young full of life is gone? Ashley was a good person who still had so much to do. Yet in her short life she did so many great things.

Than BunBuns a sweet little bunny who never got to meet his mama Emily or his grandparents Rosie and Danny. Atleast he will get to play with his sister again.

I want to think that you and Drew were waiting for them with the others at the bridge. Ready to show them how cool it is up there.

How much loss have we suffered this year? How many have crossed and wait for us to join them? How can we keep going through this? How do we survive?

I will end this before I start crying again.


Sunday, January 27, 2008

Past Post

From: JadeIcingDate: 2007-05-31 05:35:56

Hey my big DIVA it's 5am and I have been up an hour. I can't believe your gone. I always said I wouldn't have chosen you myself but that God sent you to me for a reason. Trying to find a way to help you made me see what amazing creatures rabbits our.

It brought to light what delicate creatures you were. Thanks to you I help others. I learned patience ok so not much but I did learn some. I learned to fight for those who have no voice. Not just to sit back and talk while others fight. I learned that every life is worth fighting for.

Daddy is so sad. He loved you so much. I don't know how he will take this but maybe he can draw comfort that you are now with his bunny Thumper who he lost years ago. Do me a favor ask Thumper how he felt about that name. Tell Thumper that Daddy still misses him and we wait for the day we all meet again.

Also say hi to Chaka and tell her grandma and JayR miss her.

I am also worried about Kashi I know she was a dog and but you two were the best of friends. You trusted her long before you trusted any of us. She would sleep by your pen and eat veggies with you. She is going to miss you.

So much more to say but how do I say it? How do I accept you are gone? I love you my big DIVA. We will meet again at the Rainbow Bridge and you will nip me and ask for crasins. When hear thunder I will think of your stomping.

From: JadeIcingDate: 2007-05-31 16:35:01

Sorry this is long but these are some songs that come to mind right now.

Friends Never Say GoodbyeMusic by Elton JohnLyrics by Tim RiceAvailable on the soundtrack "The Road To El Dorado"

There isn't much I haven't sharedWith you along the roadAnd through it all there'd always beTomorrow's episodeSuddenly that isn't trueThere's another avenueBeckoning the great divideAsk no questions, take no sideWho's to say who's right or wrongWhose course is braver runStill we are, have always beenWill ever be as one

What is done has been done for the bestThough the mist in my eyes might suggestJust a little confusion about what I'll loseBut if I started over I know I would chooseThe same joy the same sadness each step of the wayThat fought me and tought me that friends never say

Never say goodbyeNever say goodbyeNever say goodbyeNever say goodbye

Suddenly that isn't trueThere's another avenueBeckoning, the great divideI would chooseThe same joy the same sadness each step of the wayThat fought me and taught me that friends never say

Never say goodbyeNever say goodbyeNever say goodbyeNever say goodbye

Celine Dion - Fly Lyrics

Fly, fly little wingFly beyond imaginingThe softest cloud, the whitest doveUpon the wind of heaven's lovePast the planets and the starsLeave this lonely world of oursEscape the sorrow and the painAnd fly again

Fly, fly precious oneYour endless journey has begunTake your gentle happinessFar too beautiful for thisCross over to the other shoreThere is peace forevermoreBut hold this mem'ry bittersweetUntil we meet

Fly, fly do not fearDon't waste a breath, don't shed a tearYour heart is pure, your soul is freeBe on your way, don't wait for meAbove the universe you'll climbOn beyond the hands of timeThe moon will rise, the sun will setBut I won't forget

Fly, fly little wingFly where only angels singFly away, the time is rightGo now, find the light

"angel" by sarah mclachlan

Spend all your time waitingfor that second chancefor a break that would make it okaythere's always one reasonto feel not good enoughand it's hard at the end of the dayI need some distractionoh beautiful releasememory seeps from my veinslet me be emptyand weightless and maybeI'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angelfly away from herefrom this dark cold hotel roomand the endlessness that you fearyou are pulled from the wreckageof your silent reverieyou're in the arms of the angelmay you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight lineand everywhere you turnthere's vultures and thieves at your backand the storm keeps on twistingyou keep on building the liethat you make up for all that you lackit don't make no differenceescaping one last timeit's easier to believe in this sweet madness ohthis glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angelfly away from herefrom this dark cold hotel roomand the endlessness that you fearyou are pulled from the wreckageof your silent reverieyou're in the arms of the angelmay you find some comfort thereyou're in the arms of the angelmay you find some comfort here


"If Everyone Cared"

>From underneath the trees, we watch the skyConfusing stars for satellitesI never dreamed that you'd be mineBut here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm aliveSinging Amen, I, I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody criedIf everyone loved and nobody liedIf everyone shared and swallowed their prideThen we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm aliveAmen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the firefliesOur only light in paradiseWe'll show the world they were wrongAnd teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen, I, I'm aliveSinging Amen, I, I'm alive(I'm alive)

And as we lie beneath the starsWe realize how small we areIf they could love like you and meImagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody criedIf everyone loved and nobody liedIf everyone shared and swallowed their prideThen we'd see the day when nobody diedWhen nobody died...

We'd see the day, we'd see the dayWhen nobody diedWe'd see the day, we'd see the dayWhen nobody diedWe'd see the day when nobody died

From: JadeIcingDate: 2007-05-31 20:31:56

Hey Sam guess you read what I said about the thunder. I love you too.

For everyone else this afternoon I went to feed the bunnies there afternoon treat and I turned to give Sam some and she wasn't there. I feel to the floor crying. I just wanted my baby. At that moment it started to thunder.

I like to think that was her stomping telling me she was ok and to get up.

From: JadeIcingDate: 2007-06-01 08:04:38

It's funny they say grief you blame others. I don't blame others and I don't blame myself. It was her time to go and thats all. No way to change that. I will miss her and rather her be here but it is was just her time.

I loved her, Rob loved her, My mom, my dad, my brother and those here loved her. She knew that.

We did everything to make sure she was healthy, taking her to the vet. Making sure she had the best food, the healthiest treats.

Nothing more we could just her time.

From: JadeIcingDate: 2007-06-01 11:13:14

Well I just got off the phone with the vets office we have made the choice to have you cremated. It wasn't an easy choice. In the end we wanted you to always have your place in our family. No one will ever replace you.

They said you will be given back to us in a blue box. I think you deserve better ok maybe I will like the box. Blue is my favorite color.

Next week the two guinea pigs join our family in body. In heart they already are part of this family they were before you left. In you honor we are going to call them Logan Jake (Jane) and Samuel (Samantha) Elijah or Eliot. I like Elijah but waiting for what Daddy thinks.

Daddy still can not come here to say good bye. His heart is broken and I am not sure he is ready to yet.

From: JadeIcingDate: 2007-06-01 22:48:15

I thought I was done posting for the day but I guess not. I just wanted you to know that I liked hearing the thunder again today.

Also Kashi keeps looking for you. She spent all day going all over looking around. She would go to where your pen should be and come out look at me as if to ask where are you. How do I tell her your gone?

I also noticed Teresa keeps sitting looking across to your pen. Also wondering where her arch nemisis is.

I don't know what to do we miss you. Daddy posted on his 360 blog but still can not come here. We watched your videos when he got home. It was nice we laughed at the memories as tears of sorrow rained down our faces. We still can't believe your gone.

I still don't know how to tell Daniel you are gone. She gave you to us knowing we would love you. As I have said not the housewarming gift I expected but one of the best ever.

I am going to qoute something Daddy wrote on his blog here.

Good bye Samantha Jane. I don't know why you felt it was time to leave us, we were ready to take care of you for a long time yet. I hope you were truly happy in your time with us. I hope you have found peace. You will be greatly missed.